Entry Nine

I hadn’t had a real boyfriend since 2000, when we were on the ship together.  The next guy I dated wasn’t until 2004 but that wasn’t serious.  It had been 11 years since I had any kind of real relationship.  I kept hearing “it will happen when you least expect it” blah – blah – blah.  I fucking hated hearing that all the time!! I was least expecting it for many years!  I also swore that I would punch somebody in the throat the next time I heard “you’re too busy for a boyfriend”.  Well I sure as hell wasn’t going to meet him while sitting at home watching TV either.  Ugh this kept pissing me off! I was busy because I DIDN’T have someone in my life.  I remember telling my comrades that if I met someone while running through the District Chairs, then I would stop at the end of that year.  I mean, I was seriously praying to be married and have babies by then. My clock was ticking!  My sister Jacki would always tease me and say “Tic-toc, tic-toc”.  After all, I was 35 about this time & I was scared that my life wasn’t what I had planned it to be.  (I’ve since learned that there’s bigger & better plans.)

2013 – I’m sitting in a hotel room during a Conference and my friend Sharon shows me something.  She takes a pendulum and starts talking to her Spirit Guides.  The pendulum swings back and forth and in circles to the left then the right.  I almost couldn’t believe what I was seeing but…I trusted her.   I knew she wasn’t playing any tricks on me.  She would ask questions that were related to her life & receive guidance.  The next day, I went home and tried it with a necklace.  Holy shit! It moved & I didn’t do anything except hold it very still!  I had no idea how this was working but I remember that I didn’t feel so alone anymore.

Sharon introduced me to her friends Rachelle & Sharri.  They are psychic mediums who build their own company called “My Angels Rock”.  I made an appointment to have a reading with them and this was another day that changed my life.  I was told that I am more intuitive than I realized and that I should work with my gift.

They also told me that I will be in a relationship by the end of the year.  This gave me so much hope and reassurance.  It had been 7 years since I was dating.  It’s a long time to be alone but for the most part, I was happy with my life and had been very blessed with wonderful family, friends, people & opportunities.

I loved these ladies! They were so friendly, upbeat and hilarious! I wanted to see them again really bad, but I didn’t want to have to pay them - LOL.  (That was my inside joke for a while.)  I had the chance to sit with them at an expo, a couple of months later.  It was fascinating! A whole room full of people who were psychics, mediums and other teachers of spirituality.  I wanted more.